alhamdulillah now dah 13hari Ramadhan. and saya baru pertama kali pergi tarawih. awesome sgt kn. first week period. second week, jemputan buka puasa penuh. alhamdulillah rezeki..

okay. sambung balik.

tadi habis kerja 6pm. tunggu staf meal, which is pizza 6inch dalam 15min macam tu, baru balik rumah terus mandi, Asar and relek siket.juadah berbuka pon member2 dah belikan tadi. dalam hati mcm dah bertekad nak pergi terawih tapi takot sgt sbb tatau mane tempat perempuan.

tekad kan hati, saya pun pergi la. isya di rumah, terus ke masjid. rupanye dorang ni akan buat tahlil dulu. mengantuk jgk la. sebab ramai betul list nye. baru lah terawih. haa yang ni part paling menyampah. sebab, okay. imam bace sgt laju, fine. bace mcm cakap sorang2. lepas tu budak2 main mercun kuat teramat! haih. sabar je laaa..

mule2 ingat nak buat penuh, tapi malas la. buat sakit hati je. now sedang bersenang2 siket. besok kerja mcm biasa.

oh ye! besok dapat elaun tusyen. alhamdulillah..

dan besok juga besday Shuk ke-22 tahun. dan saya baru teringat pada hari Rabu yg lepas. teheee.. :)

from my friend :

Why Do You Love Me So? - A Conversation With Allah.

Please Note: The below is a fictional story made up to make us think.

One day, I woke early in the morning to watch the sunrise. Ah the beauty of Allah’s creation is beyond description. As I watched, I praised Allah for His beautiful work. As I sat there, I felt his presence with me.

He asked me, “Do you love me?”

I answered, “Of course! You are my Lord!”

Allah then asked, “If you were physically handicapped, would you still love me?”

I was perplexed. I looked down upon my arms, legs and the rest of my body and wondered how many things I wouldn’t; be able to do, the things that I took for granted.

And I answered, “It would be tough, but I would still love You.”

Then the Lord said, “If you were blind, would you still love my creation?”

How could I love something without being able to see it? Then I thought of all the blind people in the world and how many of them still loved Allah and His creation.

So I answered, “Its hard to think of it, but I would still love you.”

The Lord then asked me, “If you were deaf, would you still listen to my word?”

How could I listen to anything being deaf? Then I understood. Listening to Allah’s Word is not merely using our ears, but our hearts.

I answered, “It would be tough, but I would still listen to Your word.”

The Lord then asked, “If you were mute, would you still praise My Name?”

How could I praise without a voice? Then it occurred to me: Allah wants us to pray from our very heart and soul. And praising Allah is not always with a prayer, but when we are persecuted, we give Allah praise with our words of thanks.

So I answered, “Though I could not physically pray, I would still praise Your Name.”

And the Lord asked, “Do you really love Me?”

With courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly, “Yes Lord! I love You because You are the one and true Allah!”

I thought I had answered well, but…

“THEN WHY DO YOU SIN?”

I answered, “Because I am only human. I am not perfect.”

Allah asked, “THEN WHY IN TIMES OF PEACE DO YOU STRAY THE FURTHEST? WHY ONLY IN TIMES OF TROUBLE DO YOU PRAY THE EARNEST?”

I had No answers. I had only tears.

The Lord continued: “Why only pray at mosques? Why seek Me only in times of worship? Why ask things so selfishly? Why ask things so unfaithfully?”

The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.

Allah asked, “Why are you ashamed of Me? Why are you not spreading the good news? Why in times of persecution, you cry to others when I offer My shoulder to cry on? Why make excuses when I give you opportunities to serve in My Name?”

I tried to answer, but there was no answer to give.

“ You are blessed with life. I made you not to throw this gift away. I have blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you continue to turn away. I have revealed My Word to you, but you do not gain in knowledge. I have spoken to you but your ears were closed. I have shown My blessings to you, but your eyes were turned away. I have sent you servants, but you sat idly by as they were pushed away. I have heard your prayers and I have answered them all. DO YOU TRULY LOVE ME ?”

I could not answer. How could I? I was embarrassed beyond belief. I had no excuse. What could I say to this? When I my heart had cried out and the tears had flowed, I said, “Please forgive me Lord. I am unworthy to be Your servant.”

The Lord answered, “That is My Grace, My servant.”

I asked, “Then why do you continue to forgive me? Why do You love me so?”

The Lord answered, “Because you are My creation. You are my servant. I will never abandon you. When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you. When you shout with joy, I will laugh with you. When you are down, I will encourage you. When you fall, will raise you up. When you are tired, I will carry you. I will be with you till the end of days, and I will love you forever.”

-people, tipu kalau ta nangis

- bace lah Al-Quran. Sesungguhnye dalam Quran itu semua ialah Love Letter dari Allah kepade kite, hambaNya :')

same quote to share :)

have faith syg. cause having faith would lead you to unexpected things and places. ada hikmahnya. pasti ada. Allah sayang. lalu Allah uji.

A great man isn't someone who seeks to be perfect. A great man is someone who sees and accepts imperfections, perfectly. Take Rasulullah SAW for example, a great man He is. But yet He never punished His wives for being human ( angry, jealousy etcetera. ) Then look at ourselves my dear brothers and sisters. Do we really deserve perfection ? I’m very sorry to say this - but this is for self-reflection. Mahukan kesempurnaan itu adalah fitrah. Tapi apabila rasa ‘layak’ untuk mendapat yang lebih baik, mungkin hati itu sudah sedikit cacat. Ramai yang mahukan jejaka kacak, gadis anggun, yang mampu memimpin dan dipimpin - tapi bila terlihat akan kekurangan, lantas ditolak tanpa tapi.

Maaf andai kedengaran sinis, tapi inilah hakikat. Diberi pilihan antara jejaka alim dan kacak, dan jejaka alim yang tidak kacak - siapa yang dipilih? Sama juga, antara gadis alim yang anggun, dan gadis alim yang tidak anggun - siapa yang dipilih? Ini fitrah manusia, mahukan kesempurnaan - meskipun tanpa disedari, jiwa sendiri sudah cacat. Mungkin pandangan saya akan dibantah dan dibangkang, tapi izinkan saya bertanya - berapa ramai lelaki alim yang sanggup memperisterikan isteri yang ‘kurang alim’ dengan niat mahu membimbingnya? Berapa ramai perempuan alim yang sanggup mempersuamikan lelaki ‘kurang alim’ dengan niat sanggup memimpin dan dipimpin? Kalau selama-lamanya semua mahukan yang baik-baik sahaja tanpa mengira tanggungjawab membimbing dan dibimbing - salah siapa andainya yang hanyut terus hanyut, dan yang hebat kekal hebat? This goes the same for friendship too. Kalau semua sibuk nak berkawan dengan orang sefikrah, siapa yang akan cuba memberi kefahaman kepada yang masih tidak kenal Islam sendiri? Maaf - ini setepatnya saya tujukan kepada semua yang mengaku “dai’e”. Take this challenge to prove that this is wrong. Islam is for all, not for certain people only.

since im online using my sis laptop, so no pictures. kene tunggu lah ye. x seronok lah nak becerita, nak mengumpat, nak marah2 tade gambar. x ke? tadi kemas rak tv, sebab bosan sangat huh? astro buat hal pulak. then join kekgha n mama selongkar gambar2 la. she wants to find her pictures but it turns to me pulak yang jumpe gambar2 lame! HAHA kelakar sangat okeh kami adik beradik ber-posing straight! and also my classmate dulu. adoi gelak sungguh2 tadi. ade ke orang gelak ta ber-sungguh? puff what the heck pikir pasal orang lain.

- mimie : ingat, orang lain tu ta penah pikir pasal kite. so don't mess up kepale kite pikir pasal mereka.

what a great advice. after my sis and shuk :)

dah lame x update blog. hehe my bad. almost 2weeks dah habis exam. sekarang di Melaka and sedang melampiaskan nafsu yg ber-maharajelela untuk online nih. ayat kemain lagi kan. saya selalu on blog tp tula, bukan nak update cume blog walking saja.

2weeks after exam was soooo exhausted. penat. tiap2 hari menuggu. my life ruined. kene marah, kene sembur, kene pulau. everything in 2weeks. kite harapkan pade pagar tapi pagar makan padi. so how? eheh.

pasal kawan, pasal carik kerja, pasal result exam yang hampeh (nanti mesti Shuk x bagi hadiah lagi), pasal projek, pasal research whatever information tentang projek. i said just now, everything. sme dalam otak ta penah benti. untunglaaa orang yang boleh freedom lepas exam. mak bapak kaye so bole bagi duit. nak tengok wayang tiap2 hari pon tape. untunglaaa orang yang final year nye tade projek yang teruk gaban mcm kami budak Kimia. untung sungguh sebilangan dari mereka.

- duit itu penting. i know ia bukan kiblat tapi hanya untuk alat tapi still it can make people insane and die for.

after all, this is my mimie :)

ili sorry. I bru bole online. Hehe. Urm first of all,i tade peminat okay.haha. Pasal kerja,you pernah dgr tak good things come to those who wait :) i tahu part menunggu tu seksa. I've been in that place. Kadang kadang tu ape yg kita rancang tak semestinya akan ikut flow yang kita nak syg. I tahu mesti rasa tertekan gila tgk kwn lain dah dpt kerja. So what? Tak semestinya sbb you tak dpt kerja lg then you boleh anggap diri you loser. A big no. Jgn kesah pasal org sekeliling. You tahu tak depa semua tu tak pernah kesah pun pasal kita tau.hidup mati kita mana depa kesah.hehe. Allah itu Maha Adil. I may not be the right person to talk about this whole thing.tapi I percaya Allah itu sentiasa ada dengan kita. Letak itu dalam hati you. Susah mcm mana sekalipun,ckp kat diri you yang semua ni akan pay off one day. Semua ni akan berbaloi.sape tahu insyaallah you akan dapat job yg lagi grand dri kwn2 you. Remember bila i tak dpt twran bljr hritu? I rsa mcm nak separuh mati dah give up.seriously i bgitahu you i ni bukan jenis optimist sgt.hehe. Tapi i keep on ckp kat diri i,Insyaallah Allah tak akn pernah hampakan hambanya yang sbr.and alhamdulillah Allah makbulkan doa I :) and you kena ingat.memang lumrah manusia masa senang cepat lupa. I pun mcm tu. Tapi at least you ada kesedaran bila susah cpt2 kembali kepada Allah.mungkin Allah uji you sbb dia nak you berckp dgn dia:) kita ni banyak khilafnya tpi jgn lupa juga bahawa Allah itu Maha Pengampun :) I tak sure mcm mana you hndle all this kind of stress. Tpi i nak kongsi my way. And i really hope this could help you :) tak bnyk pun cuma solat hajat setiap hari.doa suapay segala perjalanan kita dipermudahkan.and dalam sehari make sure kita bca ayat2 al quran walaupun sebaris ayat.mybe you bole jadikan amalan bca yassin pgi2.insyaallah tenang sikit:) and pasal kawan ni. Ili,i envy you tau! asal you nak envy i yang takde ape ni? Hahaha. You are speacial in your own ways. Pasal berkwn ni actually dri kecik lg kot kita akan face mslh mcm ni. Mcm yg i selalu ckp,kita kena cri org yg worth out tears untuk ditangisi. Mcm jgk kawan. I rsa if diaorang acted like that,sorry to say tpi kwn you tak matang.at least if ada mslh,confront la dulu sblm nak memulaukan org.and you,tak payah sedih psl diaorg. If betul diaorg kwn you,diaorg akan cri you balik.as long as you tak buat slh,then there is nothing to be regretted about. Org ni mcm mcm jenis tau syg. Kita kena selalu letak diri kita first. Jgn fkirkan org.sbb org tak fikirkan kita. And look at you.you ada ramai lg kwn yg care psl you.why on earth you nak care psl those who dont? Hehe. Cara untuk let them go is to forgive and forget. Mksudnya biarkn diaorg and you tak simpan dlm hati dah.but that doesnt mean you perlu trhegeh2 pi kat diaorg.takpayah.you ada kwn yg lgi baik kot.tak perlu hiraukan diaorg. Okay?

currently in exam mood. 3weeks of exam such a disaster. muka dah ta boleh nak tafsir ape. otak cakap men redah je. dalam planner dah penuh dengan plan. kawan form1-form3 kahwin, kawan teknik kahwin, keje part time x dapat lagi, projek menunggu lagi 2weeks, rumah wangsa maju x kemas lagi.

most importantly : saya dah 3 hari x berjumpa dengan kekasih hati :'(