tade keje

dreaming

i dreamed, i called you


you : u call me ? afta what u've written in ur blog, berani you panggil i with my name ???!!
me : huh.. ta ta pa
you : ahhh !!
me : *rase nk nanges



afta looonggg days without you, i mimpi u tengking i. it may happen or may not ?

family day 10

28mei-30mei. okay guys, let the picture talk.

my uncle pak lawak

twister

agogo

cumel

kacak + cantek

*cuz when im with him i am, thinking of you
almost 2wix without you, it makes stronger feeling of this hella. where are you ?

:')

da 2ari bgn sbb ade org dtg. da 2ari bgn, xmandi lg, kne menatap org yg dtg. aih. maluu je. da behari hari tepon bunyi sbb text or call masuk, tao sape yg contact tp still harapkan die yg contact. still harap yg text tu bunyi dari die. still harap call in itu number x kenal yg dari die sbnrnye, bkn nye dari bebudak telekom nk pasal tepon umah. penat memg d lupekan. masih lagi lepas solat doa agar die cepat contact and datang blk dlm hdup sy. imisshim. do he noe ?? i dont think so. semalam die online. npe die x call sy gne public ke, tepon umah ke ?? die da lupe no tepon sy kot. die ckp nk beli hp baru secpt mungkin. :') tadi bukak page kwn die, tgk ade pix2 die. SUKE sgt. sbb dpt lpas rindu. xsabar nk tgkap gmbr ng die. tapi mcm mimpi je la kan.. mcm xkn menjadi kenyataan je. *nanges laju laju.

am am am

hari kames die tepon. petang. tp sy x angkat. then sy call blk. die ckp, hp hilang, tatao ne letak. esok last exam. sy tnye nk jmpe x? die kate nak. so jumat, lpas solat jumaat, meet up kat taman perumahan die. TAPI end up, 1144am, 'ari ni xdpt jmpe, ade hal ng family, maafkan am'. shit. lol. sy da eksaited. dah prepare pelbagai. aih. sy call die. dingin. die tnye npe marah ? tell me pe sbb sy xleh marah pd die. sbb awk syg kan sy. lol lagi. cane nk contact die lagi bile die da blk umah sbb sy call die tu pon gune no member die. die ckp, die akan beli hp baru secepat mungkin. aih byk hasil ?? hurmm. disebabkan sy nk sgt jmpe die and x jd, so sy pegi jgk taman perumahan die tuh. nak sedapkan ati. nk senangkan ati. now da 3ari x contact. tatao pe kabar die. hope he fine. and mcm bese, ive been missing him without stop and also thinking of him.



*die selalu wt sy mcm boneka kan ?

story

Amir. Iloveyou.im sorry

Shuk. Iloveyou and Ilovehim.im sorry

Skrg ni da jd kacau bilau sbb im having both of them. To be true, sy xnk clash ng shuk sb nk ng am. + sy xnk kapel ng am if betul sy clash ng shuk. Sb nnt kemungkinan utk am akan ungkit blk sgt besa. Kemungkinan utk die ckp, ‘ala, dlu awk pon pena tgl kan bf awk utk sy, mungkin ng sy pon awk akn bende yg same jgk’. Life, there is it. Allah sendiri pena ckp, ‘pe yg kite semai, itu yg kite tuai’. Haihh. Salah sy sbb sy bena kan am masuk dlm hidup sy. salah sy sbb layan am. Oke, get clear. Kite amek contoh betunang. Bile kite da betunang, da ready prepare gile vavi nk kawen, then suddenly ade sorg laki dtg, stand in front of us tell us, he can do better than our fiancé, tell us, he can gve more than mas kawen + hantaran dari fiancé kite. memg betul2 nk kite. + tetbe tunang kite mcm byk keje gile, xselalu luangkan mase ng kite, asek bg alasan, mcm nk xnk prepare hantaran2 nk kawen. Blh phm x skrg situasi ni cne ? n blh phm x pe perasaan pompuan tu ? haa plus tetbe pompuan tu rase kerjaya laki tu mcm xkn menjamin mase depan. What will dat gurl do ? mesti mcm akan… ‘okay, muktamad ! leave him and take that’. Hands up. So situasi sy skrg mcm tu la. Sy xnk clash ng shuk sbb sy xtao cne siriyes nye am. Sy xnk kapel ng am sbb sy xtao ape kemungkinan utk sy tidak blk blk kpd shuk. Its difficult in such dis situation. Bg am, sy mcm nk wt die sbg spare-part. That is HARSH word. Sy xpena pk pon ! bile die ckp, sy trus tediam. Tekedu. Xsangke pekataan tu meluncur laju je dari mulut die. Xsangke org yg sy mule nk sanjung, mule memuje blh ckp sy bende cmtuh. Saket-sangat. Am mcm cipmore. Kejap ade, kejap xde. Mule2 tu mcm biol jgk la. Lame lame I get used of it. Sy xpena benti pk pasal die. Tp sy truskan hidup dgn bepijak pd bumi nyata iaitu sy maseh gf org, so sy still text ng my bf. Sy cube utk carik am, cube utk reach die mane2 shje, cube segale jalan yg sy rase sy blh dapatkan die. Tp byk kali mencube, sy da penat. Sy da mule rase, ‘now its ur turn’. Tp xpena menjadi. It will turns to me back. And die selalu ckp kt sy, sabar. Dat word xde makne pon pade sy sbb sy bkn org yg mcm tu. Dah x tekire bpe kali bf sy ckp, tetap sy x pena belaja utk jd mcm tu. Skrg am lak, lagi la xde maknenye. Ade pena sy ckp ng am, ‘ili je yg mcm tehegeh hegeh nk am, carik am mcm org gile’, tp die ckp, tak ! die cume busy. And disebabkan die busy itulah yg menyebabkan menampakkan sy je carik die sbb die xde mase nk carik sy padahal die memg nk carik sy. xtao la caye ke tak. Sbb kan… ajak jmpe byk alasan. Ajak jmpe, da rancang, tp ade perubahan yg akan lead to xjumpe langsung. Ajak jmpe, da set tempat, tp tetbe kuar ayat dari am, ‘am xjnji pon nk jmpe ili kt sekian sekian tempat tu’. Hella ! shuvit-asshole ! perlu ke kua ayat, ‘ye, sy janji utk bejumpe ng awk di ctu’??? eh hellooo skema gi-la namenye tuh. Bile sum1 da ckp, ‘oke’, it means, deal = janji = it’s a date ! lol. So tell me cne sy nk caye pade die ? bkn nk mempelekehkan niat suci-murni-tulus-iklas mungkin die tu, tp kite bepijak pd bumi yg nyata kan ? logic pls. mungkin ade la belaku ‘cinta pandang petame’, tp bile mase nye pandang petame sedangkan jmpe pon x ! xkan la pandang petame dlm pix?? Gi-la. Plus bg sy, pandang petame trus minat tu ade la belaku tp lame2 feeling tu hilang la sbb yela, pandang petame and it myb means yg mungkin xde pandangan kedue and seterusnye so cne nk kuatkan perasaan tu. Sy tatao la if am ni da tesalah langkah meaning die dah tesalah dlm pemainan ni. Mule2 mungkin die suke, minat pd sy. then die da rase x minat, xsuke. Tp sy lak yg da fall hard. So sbb kan dah jd mcm ni, so die truskan jgk la ng pe yg die dah mulekan. Blh jd kn? It possible dude. So skrg ni sy da jd mcm, ikot angin. If die besungguh, prove it. If not, just leave it, I’ll b okay. Saye ni pompuan, sy cepat perasan, sy cepat tesentuh. And tell me face-to-face if u really had make up ur mind. Ni bkn bende yg blh backspace, redo, forward. Ni pasal mase depan. Sy xsuke menanti, menunggu and ape2 la yg same waktunye yg xde limit. Tell me bpe lame sy perlu tgu, sy akn cube utk besabar. Bg sy kate pasti, bru la pekataan SABAR tu bemakne dlm hdup sy. having good man beside me utk temankan sy, utk btao pe yg perlu d buat, pe yg xpatot d buat, utk bg cadangan dlm hdup sy, utk mendengar masalah2 sy, utk besabar ng kerenah sy, utk dgr luahan hati sy, utk menangis besame sy, sgt bebaloi bg sy. sbb sy ni jenis yg mudah d pengaruhi, sgt rapuh pendirian, sgt kacau bilau, xtentu arah, cpt gelabah, sgt byk bende utk d pk dlm satu mase yg same. So sy nk lelaki yg tetap pendirian, yg sabar ng sy, tahan ng sy, yg akan cube solve kan sume masalah2 sy and blablabla. sy da rancang mcm2 ng shuk pasal mase depan kami. Tp x mustahil if pe yg d rancang ng die, akan betukar menjadi merancang bende yg same tp ng org lain. I told u, ini pasal mase depan. Bkn bende yg blh d muat main plus xterase pon nk wt main. Sy siriyes ng mase depan sy n shuk sbb setakat ni, hanye die yg sy nmpak besungguh nk sy. TAPI if ade laki lain yg besungguh jgk betul2 nk sy, yg da jadi matang, sy blh petimbangkan. Yg da blh dudok ng sy, then cerite ng sy bile mase nk beli kereta, nk beli rumah, cne nk kumpul duet blablabla pasal mase depan. Bkn nye ckp nk sy, patu hilang ! then dtg blk, trus nk masuk minang ! dude, ini reality okay, bkn cerite novel yg dah tentu2 la heroin kawen ng hero. Ini pasal usaha, tawakal, ketentuan = jodoh.

ahad pulak

tetbe ayah ckp, jum g mydin. he he suke suke. sbb asek kuar je. sy ni xleh dok umah SAHAJA. mesti akan busan gila. masuk kereta, ayah ckp, xpayh g mydin, trus g jusco ! wahh !! best best. dpt mkn sizzling yg da lame x mkn. dapat beli baju baju sebyk 4helai yg total memg sy la paling mahal. hehe. bile lg nk hbs kan duet mak ayah. he he. yana pon dpt baju. mama pon ! then odw balik kami g minum petang d pantai siring dekat umbai. aman damai sgt biar pon terik mentari membahang. minum air teh o limau suam dgn bau laot yg masin. fuuhhh.then ade sorg bdk pompuan, sebelah meja kitowg. cumel-mcm cina tapi mak ayah muke melayu hbs ! sy snap pix die jgk.

asek men SMS jee

haha ayah tlg bwk handbag

pantai siring


bdk nii aih

sabtu besame yana

disebabkan amir xdpt dpt lagi nk bace my entry yg previous, so sy kuar ng yana supaye dpt pe yg sy nk tuh. hehe. sy dpt tgk nitemare on elm street, dpt mkn popcorn, dpt gune kotak popcorn time scene yg menakotkan, dpt beli seliper rm10 wane merah, dapt g tesco beli rage and dpt mkn mcD. hehe. xpuas hati sgt la sbb ingat nk wt due round muvie tp xdpt sbb masing maasing dah kesejukan. aih. and xdpt dating ng amir.










*moge cepat am dpt bace my blog. aih

for you

ye, utk awk --> arm



1. saya nk tgk nitemare on eLm street
2. sy nk sandal
3. saya nk mkn mcD
4. saya nk awk
5. saya nk mkn popcorn supaye dpt tutop muke time tgk cite tu



6. saya nak dating ng awk lak


*okay da sengal da mule merapu. mcm la amir tu nk fullfill sume yg kao nak nih. aih.



imissyou

last

ari ni shuk xdpt anta sy sbb die nk wt keje. sbnrnye nk mintak tlg die anta sy sbb kaki da melecet and saket sgt sbb pakai kasot baru. aih. tp die busy. so sy jalan la tekedek kedek mcm ape je. ari ni merah lagi. then dpt tket da blur xtao nak wtpe so snap snap je la. nseb bek ade beli sandwitch kt lrt td. so mkn la sket wt alas perot.

kesengalan terselah hehe

sampai rumah makan nasi mcm da lame gi-la x jumpe. haha. masakan mama memg tiada bandingan. sue me :p




*akan saket kepale lagi ke sy ? aih

third

lagi lagi cite pasal dok key eL. hahah. bia la sbb kt key eL sy blh kuar pagi n blk malam. kt kampung ? haramm. hehe. bkn nye hipokrit tp u tell me celah mane yg melake tu best bile malam ? NOTHING okay melainkan mcD 24hrs. hehe.

ari ni tetbe nk jd merah lak. haha. hari ni mcm bosan je sbb tatau nk wtpe. sbb x jd nk tgk nitemare on elm street. aih. mencik sguh ! so jalan jalan kt wangsa walk mall LAGY,patu msuk f.o.s patu masuk popular. hehe. BOSAN duh ! then g dominos beli utk mama ayah patu kami g dinner. hehe. haaa and malam nye kami g pasa malam kt pantai dalam. sje jejalan lagi hbs kan minyak !

beby tu telanggar sy. sy tidak besalah ! jatoh tp x nanges. good good

besok saya nk blk sbb da dpt panggilan dari merlimau. aih. hehe.

die telalu tinggi haha se-weL

second

masih lagi d key eL yang sgt ceria ini. heheh. sewel jap. ari ni saya bgn hanye dengan,

'ili, kakak nk keluar jap. nk beli bekpes mcD'.

huh ?? 'okay jap, dikli mandi'.

hahah. xde pon kakak ckp nk bwk aku tp aku tehegeh hegeh nk itot sbb da lame sgt x kuar umah KOT. then cpt cpt siap trus masuk keta ! hehe eksaited okay. then balik, kakak tnye trus kuar ke ni. of coz la kakak ! adik awk ni da gatal-miang-gedik nk dating. tapi kne setel pasal SSPN. nk tutop akaun. aih. ingat kn senang je tp rupenye leceh ! sampaikan blh gaduh gaduh ng org org kt maybank sbb depa ckp xdak borang nk tutop akaun SSPN plus akaun SSPN xblh tutop blablabla byk kali saya kne marah depan org ramai. emo gila. patu nek blk umah jmpe kakak mintak tlg call ptptn ni. dowg ckp memg ade borang tuh ! ish menyusahkan org la ! patu kne marah lagi then balas blk patu last last dpt pon borang tu which is tinggal SEHELAI je lagy n dowg memg tatau pon kewujudan borang tersebut ! alhamdulillah, dowg dpt pelajaran baru hari ini. paru g potostat ape2 yg d kehendaki. then trus lompat g bangsar ! haha. pegy lagi aswara jap sbb shuk da buntu cne nk setelkan set set die. aih cian c kacak saya.sempat pulak kan aku posing posing dlm studio rakaman. hehe. then kami g jusco blk utk beli kasot sport saya. saya da xde kasot sport ye. da hbs lunyai. konon nk btau sy ni kuat besukan la kan, padahal lari asek tetinggal ke balakang je ! hehe maluu. patu nmpak mcD lagy ! nk try yg set double tuhhh. haaa sekali besar mulut bukak ! hehe. bebaloi beb.








dinner jap patu done. sleep !

bersoSIAL di key eL

haha. dudok melake memg sgt la bosang gi-la ! kepale asek saket je ng mubin n kerenah kerenah org d melake ! so sy gi kL sbb nk pasang line streamyx kt umah n nk dpt kn lappy in terms of netbook dari TM. ari isnen, 17may, sy trun.

sampai je, shuk amek kt stsn uni then trus g um sbb nk setel pasl surat pengesahan. patu patu die ckp kne tgu SEMINGGU utk dpt kn surat tu ! BANGANG GI-LA ! shuvit nk mati ! haiya ! tepon ayah, ayah ckp, blk melake dulu patu bru g nek blk. aih. penat.



then g aswara. setel sket hal shuk. lunch kt sane sbb saya da lapa g-la. patu g umah atie jap. saje nk lpas rindu. hehe. kesian die kne sakat ng saya n shuk. haha padan muke kne jd bahan. patu kami g wangsa walk mall ! hehe. tgk tgk schedule wayang konon konon, dan dan je trus beli tket tgk cite iron man 2. huhu. best best ! sbb kan, scarlet johanson pnye style belasah-pukul-hentam org tu gi-la punye best ! memg dahsat okay. haha. *lupe kan robert downey jr.




dapat text dari kakak, ckp, 'dont rush'. so kami pon bedating lagy ! hehe. g makan, then blk rumah. tgk jam. la bru kul 8pm. aih. ingt mcm da lambat gi-la. haha. *dasar x reti dok umah.



end utk ari petame.
:p

untitled

him : tlg jgn tinggalkan saya
me : u had left me once !
him : love me ?
me : pe jaminan saya if i say 'yes' ?
him : i will do what i've said to u.

silent

me : we will solve this face-to-face.

silent

him : love me ?
me : read my blog first. then u will noe what my feeling is.

hang up

rumusan

BHAHAHAHA gi-la punye ayat


kalau bace dari april sampai yg latest nye entry, rase mcm ade yg bpe x kne ng saya lately ni. yeah, its true. okay okay kite tukar panggilan diri. AKU. haha. i should not behave like this. i noe im in hook with sumone. da bepunye still nk mengatal lagi. aih. bace post kakak sendiri, 'klu x blh setia, jgn bepakwe. klu x blh bg komitmen, jgn kawen'. aih. rase mcm kne batang hidung sendiri.

im stupid in making decision.

its a uglytruth. so please jgn wat sy buat keputusan !



if u want me, go and ask properly to my bf. be a gentleman. bukan bemaksud nk mencabar atau pk rase diri aku ni cantek, hot sgt. bukan ! tapi mcm yg sy ckp td, sy bodoh dlm wt keputusan. itu aje.


*da xde selera. bile mkn rase mcm tekak bepasir sbb dlm hati-jiwa-rage susah ati xtenang sgt.

back back he is !

try call. tegerak nak call. mane tao KOT KOT die on hp ke... and he did ! call, x angkat. text, delivered, tp x balas. kali ke-10 call, kawan angkat, told me, 'die kua minum, xbwk hp', trus hang up . OKAAYYYY


call lagi
die angkat

me : y u do this to me ? xpk pasal i ke ?
die : pk ! tp rase bedose kacau hak orang
me : ari ari menangis pasl you ! x pk ke i susa nk tdo sbb pk pasl u, bgn tdo pk lagi !
die : pk. i pon. i abaikan kesihatan sbb u. u sihat ?
me : x.
die : sbb ?
me : you. you sihat ?
die : x. sbb you

me and him : *due due suare da sebak.

die : i want to solve this. but face-to-face
me : when ?
die : b4 my exam
me : but when ?
die : tgk la


i can sleep easily and wake up trus call die. die angkat ! bile letak, rase mcm HAPPY sgt

die : answer me. do u love me ?
me : i dont noe

dream dream

ade satu malam tu mimpi pasal die

die call

me : bukak link yg i bg ?
die : bukak
me : bace blog i ?
die : bace

diam

die : u're wasting ur time



aih
bgn rase penat

lucky

i am lucky
having all of them in my life
sbb tu saya xnk SALAH SEORANG DARI MEREKA PERGI
sbb xtao cne nk hdup tanpe dowg
x complete if x ckup

family
family besar
shuk
nard, atie, k.dayu, mimie
amir, shahrul, hazim, akmal
kawan kawan + kenalan kenalan : sk taman nirwana, sk merlimau, sdary, sm teknik bukit piatu, matrik changlun, um.

thanks people
for stick with me
and tahan dgn perangai saya
and
please forgive me
for my all stupid attitude

boyfriends

c kacak
since january08. da lame kan ? ade entry pasal die, so xde la byk sgt nk cite kt cni. hehe *pemalas







skandal
die ni
hurm hurm tsktsktsk sobsobsob :')
da byk sgt cite pasal die. so kowg blh pk sendiri la how and what i feel, i felt and still feeling bout him


sayang
xde lak pix die
HAHAHA
tapi da ade entry pasal die. cume nk tambah siket.
ade satu ari time mgu exam, bru lpas pekse time tuh. sy tgh balas balas text ng skandal. sambil jalan ng die. xpasan ade keta. sy da sampai separuh jalan baru perasan and that car saw me and still moving. xreti nk brek kot ! what had happened was, sayang saya hold my arms kuat kuat and tarik saya sekuat hati die sbb saya da freeze kt tgh jalan tu tgk keta tu x benti. saya sedar sayang sy tarik tp memg sy x gerak then sy dgr die jerit, 'ili !! keta !!'. baru sy kebelakang. eheh, sayang jgk die kt sy. haha. ade la budak2 kolej kitowg nmpak. dowg ckp, 'amboi, syg betul kao ng kawan ek. kitowg pon nk kne langgar jgk, npe x selamatkan kitowg ?'. ey minachi, sayang aku ni ade due tangan je. ne nak ckup nk selamatkan ramai ramai. adeh







hazim
since standard 1
since ampang
come to malacca
and still now
dulu2, ramai ckp kami ade jodoh sbb die ade d mane mane sy berade. tp die pena ckp, 'org tatao harge frenship kite cne. bia kan la dowg'. harap je da kenal lame tp air and makanan kegemaran die sy tatao. (rase mcm pena tao, tp da lupe ! eheh, sory hazim). die x suke org panggil die azim, zim and pape je yg bkn HAZIM. sbb die ckp, 'itu name kite. yg len x'. die suke brahsie. menyampah betul. x suke. haha. bile sy korek korek, die ckp sy busybody. eh, org risau pasal die, die blh lak ckp org mcm tu ! and kami gune kan panggilan diri 'kite, awak'. sbb kenal time darjah 1.





akmal
since july09
bru je kenal
now die kt egypt
taking medic course. insyaAllah jadi doc
pena ade crush ng die. tp kitowg da setel secare baik. and now jd kawan baik.
xsangke kitowg blh bebincang pasl tu ;p

semua orang membesar. tapi x semua dewase.
:D

girlfriends

now nak cite pasal my so-called girlfriends





nard
nadzirah roslan
kenal since form 2
die ni memg aku sayang sangat
sgt respek ng die
die ni umpama diari saya
luar dalam die tao
EVERYTHING
plus
die ni sangat besabar
saya seorg yg panas baran. betul. ingat lagi time form2, sy pernah tengking die tgh2 org ramai semate mate die lupe nk amekkan surat khabar utk sy. GILE x ? and die trus pusing blk, amek surat khabar tu. bile ingat blk (sbnrnye xnk ingt pon sbb rase menyesal sgt). rase mcm 'akulah raja', 'aku la pemerintah'. aih. bagi die, aku ni sumber kekuatan die. sy tao die ramai kawan. sbb die memg baik pon. and die x selalu carik sy, x selalu text sy. tp bile ade masalah, die akn carik sy. sy x kesa. adatla if terase. tp xpe as long as die carik sy and im soo glad sy ade bile die ade masalah. at least xdela sy ni di kategorikan kawan time senang sahaja.

bile bekawan atau that person has anything to do with me, sy nk besenang dan besusah ng die.







atie
nor 'azati mohd yusof
kenal since dec07
ratu air mate and gelak ketawe
bile sy bg adiah besday, menangis
bile tao sy kapel ng shuk, die nangis LAGI
bile clash ng shuk (kejap je), pon die nangis jgk
aih
penat nk pujuk. hbs tisu sy. HAHA
tp skrg die kt sarawak, kota semuamarah. HAHA. kota samarahan sbnrnye
so da xselalu text. x selalu jmpe. tp sy pernah wt kejutan x seberape. sy pegy sarawak hanye utk die. memg gi-la mati. haha. memg die suke sgt ! and sy pon puas ati sbb nmpak die senyum. :) sbb tu die suke ckp sy ni romantik. auww maluu okay.

die pena ckp, 'if ari ni ari mencuri satu dunia, aku nk curik ketawe kao. sbb ketawe kao blh wt org ceria'. :') she is good in lying.




k.dayu
nor hidayu md nasir
roomate sy d um
memg manusia yg mane ntah yg sgt sgt la lurus
penyabar
tp kadang kadang suke wt sy saket ati sbb perangai die yg lurus tu
sy kne bejage wt report sampai kul 4am and lampu tepasang, die blh tdo !
'xpe, ili byk keje. ili bukak je lampu besa. akak blh tdo even terang'.
bile blk dari pecutian atau kua bedating, sy beli pape utk die
'ili ni.. mesti ade beli pape utk akak. akak je yg x pena beli pape utk ili'.

orang baik ng kite, kite bebahase la kan ? my mom always said that to me.






mimie
sharifah syamimi syed omar
ini kawan petame yg ade sharifah :)
sy xtao nk behave cne ng die
sbb im kinda yg x brape nk polite
and die lak adelah org yg sgt polite
so mcm x bpe kne sgt gandingan tu
but im still try and keep trying to make her comfortable with me
sy pena jmpe die kt airport time die nk blk egypt. with shuk
dapat bebual kejap
disebabkan kawan2 baik sy yg petame n kedue tu jaoh jaoh, so dgt die la sy becerite. and with my roomate also.



nk tao ?
nard pena terase ng sy sbb atie. die ckp, 'aku tao aku x baik mcm atie'. you are so wrong la syg. atie lain, awk pon lain. if awk tu d overc, of cos sy akn pegy jgk. i love four of them. plus, my family already consider awk tu mcm keluarge sndiri.

k.dayu. saya selalu buli die.

mimie. my listener. even die lambat bls inbox sy atau post sy, tp die try utk mendengar. and sy patot puji die la kan d atas usaha usaha die tu ?

sy x byk kawan. sy tao tu. xramai, asalkan memahami. sy tao sy x sgt d carik. tp xpe. asalkan sy ade mase dowg susa. sbb sy tao sy d perlukan time tu.

SAYANG saya pena ckp, 'kao tu asek ng bf je ! patotla x byk kawan !'.

saya mengaku tu. sbb kt kL, sy ade die je. YANG DEKAT. ade kakak kt wangsa maju. ade sedare d gombak. tapi d bangsar + kerinchi, sy ade die je. and his family.

in between

ari ari pk pasal YOU
ari ari text ng B
mcm x betul je aku ni
aih

im afraid
if im stop thinking of you
i will forget you
and that
is the thing i dont want to

u can call me desperate
call me anything
but
deep inside only me noes

:')

mama

'apabila meninggal nye ibu kamu, make kamu teputus salah satu berkat dari Allah S.W.T iaitu doa seorang ibu'

'jangan mengabaikan (membenci dan menjauhi) orang tuamu. barang siapa mengabaikan orang tuanya maka die kafir'

hadis riwayat Muslim

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY mama

i noe im not a good girl
to be so-called anak solehah
nak jadi anak dare yg sepenuhnye feminine pon x bedaye
but im trying to make whatever it takes to make u smile
your smile
brighten my day


sincere
iliarinayusof
aka
ili yj

dinner

orait
ari ni mcm kekenyangan
alhamdulillah
time tgu magrib, gosip2 ng mama
then borak2 lagi lpas da azan
patu g mandi
tetbe ayah ketuk pintu blk air
patu mama lak
aih bengang ni
keluar je, sume da siap !
'jum kua mkn !'
ngeee
cepat cepat siap
IKAN BAKAR SERKAM, sy datang !






*its been a LOOOOOONGGGGG time i didnt eat ikan bakar. da lupe da pon bile kali terakhir makan. thanks ayah. happy mothers' day mama. again

bekpes

pagi tadi bekpes ng mama
bedue je
sbb ayah kua g kebun x kejutkan mama
mama bgn kebengangan sbb ayah x kejut
plus saya lak bgn sbb rase mcm da xleh nk tdo
trus g mandi
b4 masuk blk air, mama ckp, 'jum g mkn lua'
'okay'
hehe

roti canai.
nasi lemak telur mate.
white coffee.

aih

ingat x saya pena ckp dlm previous entry sy ade text ng am ?
alaa yg x delivered tu
okay now nk btao yg text tu memg x sampai pon, rejected
meaning, die memg x bukak hp
or maybe da trus tukar number
betul betul die nk lupekan sy kn
:'(
menangis banyak banyak

sanggup he doing this to me






DAH
tekak rase bepasir lagi

kebiasaan

tadi tgk pix pix die
saya rindu die
macam biase



:')
i bet he dont noe bout it

suit my mood

penah dgr lagu OVER by lindsay lohan ?
tetbe rase mcm seswai
tapi
lagu YOUR CALL by seconhand serenade
suit my mood NOW
also lagu yg liriknye begini

i remember years ago
someone told me is should take
caution when in comes to love
i did

and
lagu T-SHIRT
okay
rase tekak mcm bepasir
LAGI

he is fine

regarding to my c kacak
he is been so well right now
byk sgt keje die
exam gendang da lpas, alhamdulillah
now nk tempuh preview PETA
then exam teori muzik
lastly PETA
then satu sem lagi hanye utk satu kelas selame 2jam
patu konvo march depan
hope everything clean n clear for him

die byk kesusahan
tp kan
satu yg aku perasan
die blh tempuh, i mean, senang utk die solvekan masalah masalah
bile aku JAOH
meaning
bile aku da blk melake
pasal am dissapear ni, die tatao
sbb tatao nk btao cne
bkn sbb rase besalah
tp ntah
myb aku rase bende ni aku blh handle
*but its NOT.

B
keep it up kay ?
iloveyou
as always

gatal LAGI

tadi kua ng mama. g dating ng mama. haha. xde shoping mane pon sbb kua pon da lambat. janji mama pade ayah blk umah kul6. tp sampai 730pm. hehe. SORRY AYAH

ikot jadual kami, mule2 g tesco then jusco patu giant. tapi berubah menjadi hospital, tesco, jusco then hospital blk n solat d alai. hehe. sbb anak cik normah, along masuk hospital. da lame. tapi kami je x bepeluang nk g tgk. sampai kul 4. mase melawat kul5. hampeh. trus g tesco beli rage. patu jalan jap. patu g jusco. konon nk carik kasot. tapi kewangan x mencukupi. sale xde lak ari ni. tekak da rase dahage sgt. plus saya x mkn pape pon dari pagi td. siap2 trus g cc, then mama pick up trus gerak.

okay, then tetbe nmpak kenny rogers ! tnye mama, blh x mkn kt cni ? sbb ade kupon. mama ckp
okay. haha. BEST. tp x hbs. tape. blh bungkus. patu g hospital

sampai borak2 dulu kt ruang borak (ade ke ?) ng cik normah. nampak die pegang baby. SANGAT TEMBAM. and baik je. x nanges pon. trus men men ng baby sambil dgr mama begosip ng cik normah. haha. name baby tu UMAIRAH.

da hampir setengah jam baru la kami tehegeh hegeh masuk tgk along. along maseh HANDSOME. xmampu nafikan :D along macam... makin GELAP? yep, itu yang paling ketare. xpasan lak badan die yg kurus tp yg GELAP tu la yg perasan. sbb die sebelum ni putih. aih along along.

belek belek rekod perubatan seharian die (ceh mcm doc lak aku ni). tgk tgk asek kne masukkan oksigen. tnye die knpe, die ckp tekanan darah rendah. aih along along. npe la hensem sgt ? *ade kne mengene ke ? BHAHAHAH

dari odw sampai la dlm umah, x hbs hbs ckp nk kawen ng along. along hensem, along kacak. npe la along x pandang aku. then mama kua kn statement, ' xpayah la ili. lagi 3tahun along akan jd BUTE'. haa ? GOSH ! terase mcm bru lpas dgr pengumuman banjir plak.

xtao la npe tp aku ni mudah simpati sgt sgt ng org yg sakit ni. nk sedapkan ati, ckp ng mama,'ala, ntah ntah along x pandang dikli kn'. mama ckp, eh tadi kan die pandang awk bile awk tnye die tuh. aih. mama.... please. owg memg suke along la. bkn suke in terms of saje gedik gedik. tapi die ensem, tinggi, muke cengkung. haha. mama pon da perasan saya suke laki yg mcm ni. sbb mama ckp, awk tu klu kurus, tinggi, itam, gelap, cengkung, suke la. haha. mama sgt prihatin. Happy mothers' day mama. *jap ade kne mengene lg ke. haha


serious
along handsome
anak mate hazel
die tinggi
shuk pena jmpe die
shuk sendiri ckp die handsome

ade bran ?
;p

tamak

DEATH is EASY
LIFE is HARD
especially when it turns to
having
special man
not one, but TWO
2 men in our life
muhamad shukur rosani
mohamad amir mohamad



iloveyou
as always
ineedyou
in terms of skandal + kawan baik

its right

People make mistake


NO !



People make choice

begging

aih
ari ari menangis
sejak bile la aku jadi ratu airmate ni
hehe :')

am
bile nk dtg blk ?
im waiting
and waiting
till when i dont noe
:')

please datang blk
im begging u

love letter

dear ARM
how are you so far ?
getting better about your eyes ?
ade pedih2 lagi ?
jgn menatap lappy lame2
dlm gelap
nnt saket lagi
am kn nk exam da
jage kesihatan tao

ARM
are you satisfy now ?
without me i your circumtances
do u feel better ?

ARM
ili rindu am
ili tao ili telalu emo bile beckp ng am
sbnrnye
ili tahan nanges
i told you
i cant hate you
i just fall and keep falling to you
imissyou

am x rindu ili ea
okay now that sound wrong
am xpena rindu ili
and what u said
what ALL u said, i didnt mean it
as well as i want u to meant it
u xpena sayang
and and
u dun love me
GOSH
ili yg perasan gi-la babi !
BHAHAHA


thanks am sbb wat mcm ni
thanks sbb pk yg ili better without you but you are WRONG !
thanks sbb buat ili saket-kepale-pening pk pasal am
thanks sbb wat ili call, text am byk kali
thanks sbb buat ili tehegeh hegeh mcm pompuan x tao malu

ARM
i want you to stay
stay with me
mane janji2 am ?

pffft
am mane pena janji pape ng ili
am xpena JANJI NK FIGHT UTK DAPATKAN ili
am xpena JANJI NAK PENUHI KEHENDAK ili
am xpena ckp yg AM AKAN KUMPUL DUET UTK MASUK MINANG ili
am xpena pon ckp lagi yg am akan tukar AIM AM AKAN KAHWIN DARI UMUR 30THN KEPADE 3,4 TAHUN LAGI

im deadly sitting here
witing for you
to hear
your explanation
i dont mind if it will take a day to hear all what u will say
because i hve a plenty time to do so
:)

malam malam

confession of a broken heart

today was a fairy tale
can u feel this magic in the air
it must be the way u kiss me

:D

xtdo lagi malam2 bute ni
sbb asek teringat die je
aih
tadi ade anta text pd die
tp x delivered
myb die da tukar number KOT
sbb
yelah
saya kn pengacau
asek buru die je
mesti die takut ng saya kn ?
pfft okay mengarut
da mule meracau racau
haha
im going to be TAK BETUL

redha je la
i just want him to be back again
in my life

trus sgt ke pemintaan saya ni ?
GOSH
betul ckp SAYANG saya
'aku rase mamat ni ade niat x baik pade ko. die nk seswatu dari ko'
tapi kn yang, mamat ni tetbe DISSAPEAR je !
aku lak skrg ni yg mcm dlm ayat tu
so ayat tu akan jadi mcm ni
'aku rase KAO ni ade niat x baik pd mamat tu. KAO nk seswatu dari die'
BHAHAHA
gud story kan ?


aih
aih
fenin la
saket kepale lagi
am
tolong datang blk
im begging you
:')

all his voice

ini je yg mampu ingat sepanjang kenal MOHAMAD AMIR MOHAMAD

'am xsuke skandal ni ili. am xlayan pon pompuan2 mintak skanda; ng am. sbb bile skandal, jd menakutkan pulak. dowg mcm nk betul2 kapel lak. xnk la am'
--> tetbe aku terase

'am xnk kite teburu buru nk jmpe. takot nt pe yg kite rancang sume x menjadi'
--> i guess he is right

'ili x rase ke am ni da jd org ke3 dlm hubungan ili n bf ?'
--> xpon. mcm bese je

'am sayang kn ili. syg sgt2. am cintakan ili. iloveyousoomuch. am akn penuhi pe yg ili nk'

'AM AKAN FIGHT UTK DAPATKAN ILI'

'am xreti marah la ili. bile am marah, am rase nk gigit org ! ili nk kne gigit ea.. bhahaha'
--> imisshislaugh :')

'am punye kelas penuh la ari ni (5may) sampai pkul 6. klu nk jmpe, kt mlimau blh la. xpon mlm blh ?'

'salah am. am tetdo td. kelas hbs kul 5 td'

'am xjnji pon nk jmpe ili kt cc. am xde jnji pape pon nk dtg jmpe ili. npe ili nk marah sgt ni ?'

'ili.. blh paham x am ni cne ?? kite kn same2 student. lgpon skrg ni nga study week. ade cikgu nk wt class, ade x'

'am nye kelas ari ni (6may) kul 2. tp myb lambat hbs sbb ade pejumpaan. taklimat Li'

and that is the last i heard his VOICE

:')

what else cn i do

lately post asek pasal skandal je
yg di mane (BHAHAHAH ... )
bile bace kali petame mesti akan pk he is my bf
hehe


i want to
i dream about it
but i cant do anything
i try to make he stay
and do whatever he can to GET me
for his own sake
but i guess he is TOTALLY BAIK SANGAT

so die biarkan saya
tekapai kapai sorg
and he didnt say goodbye to me
A PROPER goodbye


so saya kne move on
HARSH
HARD
LETIH
PENAT
sbb bile nk tdo mesti pk pasal die
bile bgn tdo trus tgk henpon check ade pape tak dari die
and NONE !

then truskan kehidupan seharian


yang bagi saya sgt penat
bkn sbb kne jd anak dare
tp penat sbb menanti
penantian satu penyeksaan huh?


last sekali dari die ialah
die saket mate
mate pedih
da titik ubat
da mkn ubat
he is getting better that time
and
HEMISSME
:')


itu je
LAST

waiting

CALLED YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME YESTERDAY
FINALLY FOUND THE MISSING PART OF ME
FELT SO CLOSE BUT YOU WERE FAR AWAY
LEFT ME WITHOUT ANYTHING TO SAY

NOW IM SPEECHLESS
OVER THE EDGE, IM JUST BREATHLESS
I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I'D CATCH THIS LOVE BUG AGAIN
HOPELESS, HEAD OVER HEELS IN THE MOMENT
I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I'D GET HIT BY THIS LOVE BUG AGAIN

I CANT GET YOUR SMILE OUT OF MY MIND
I THINK ABOUT YOUR EYES ALL THE TIME

:')
i've been missing him constantly

ehem ehem

tadi belek belek surat khabar
tetbe rase rajin bace semua
haha

xlah
sbb da lame x jmpe surat khabar
so td memg rajin bace dari muke surat petame sampai last !
haha
then tebukak *cet poyo je tebukak
then tibe ruang iklan
rajin gi-la bace satu2 iklan
(memg da lame betul x jmpe surat khabar :) )
nampak ruang jual kereta
trus mate mcm yoyo je turun naek turun naek tgk iklan !
BHAHAHA

mampu tgk keta perodua je la kn
haha
viva 25k
sebulan rm268

how cool is that ?

i x men la duet mak bapak
:p

lot of things happen

eventhough cuti baru bpe ari je bemule


start from mubin
die demam since aku blk
demam panas
menjerit jerit
merengek rengek
panggil 'nanny' , 'nanny'
byk kali kne marah ng atok die
tp die wt x reti
kesian
tp gram jgk


mule2 ass die saket
die ckp, ayah die cucuk pin kt ctu
rupenye melecet
then cirit birit
sampai kne tmpt tdo
cian lagi die kne marah
patu telinge saket
xblh nk sentuh
rupe2nye hari ke3
bru kitowg dpt tao die nk tumbuh gg !
tu pon selepas aku teka
rupenye betul tekaan aku
:D


then hari yg ke4
die merengek jgk
tp x hebat sgt
yg pasti selame die saket
die x mkn
byk minum air masak
badan susut SANGAT !

aku saket kepale selame cuti
sbb mlm2 tdo lambat
sbb susa nk tdo
sbb pk byk sgt masalah yg x tao nk solve kn cne
bgn pagi2 sbb mubin da merengek2, menjerit2 mcm org kne sawan panggil 'nanny'
patu seharian x tdo sbb kne wt keje rumah
smbil pk lagi pasal masalah
aih


keje kt petronas lak xde kosong
try mintak kt kdai topup, nk fulltime pulak
aih
balik dari cc, ayah bg borang keje kt 7e
try la mintak
penat la cmni

am. tolong datang blk dlm hdup saya
i need u more than u ever think !
please

isi hati

today, 7may2010
imisshim
terribly
why dis shud epen to me
im crying
soo much in my heart
cz i dun hve strength to cry it out from my eyes
:')

i fake a smile
i fake a laugh
GOSH
i cant believe it will turns so hard dis time
why ARM?
i cant live without you
i cant live a life like this
you had enter my life
make me fall hard to u
hands up dis time
surrender
big time

i cant stand look at your pic everyday
you make me crying
again
AND AGAIN

please ARM
datang balik
you are not wrong
i just want you
dats all
and accompany me
always

imissyou
:')

him

sorry
sbb keep haunting you
sbb asek call you
sbb asek text you

i've been addicted to you
i cant stop it
and i dont want to stop it
my fault dear ?

you the one yang masuk dlm hidup i
u the one yg chasing me
tapi nape sekarang mcm da jadi sebaliknye ?
why now you away from me ?
why now
'rase bedose plak kacau hak orang' ?
why not, in the first place
u think about this ?


u off cellphone
you ignore me
still i want you
why turning off hp sayang ?
do you know im missing you terribly ?
i sakit kepale
crying
sampai blh mimpi you call i
i x larat
i perlukan you
why u cant trust me ??

i cant hate you
how much i try to
i cant
icant stop it dear
i cant


i want to listen to your voice
i want to hear you yelling at me
i want you to make me laugh
i just want you
beside me

please dear
please

imissyou
ineedyou
i
think
im fall in love with you
but you dont know bout it
and it hurts


:')

shame on me

call banyak kali x angkat
text x balas
sbb xde kedit

ask him
'are you ignoring me?'
of coz la x jawab kn
sbb xde kedit

call lagi
x angkat lg
call lagi
lameee
kawan angkat
'die bru je kuar'
'die telupe bwk hp'

???
menipu
penipu

malam call lagi
angkat
tapi hold
trus letak

call lagi
die tnye wtpe
da nk tdo ni
okay, nyte
sweet dream
imissyou

rase cm tekak bepasir
penipu
tolongg la
why am i crying for him ????

ihatethispartrighthere

ignore

bile pk balik twice
and
banyak kali jgk la
rase saket kepale je


salah ke klu aku mintak jpe ?
aku x reti nk bekawan ng org yg xpena jmpe
plus
my kacak pon x bpe setuju sbnrnye
if kwn tp x nmpak muke


tp die ni
bile ajak jmpe
mcm2 alasan
muke huduh la
aih
saba je la

bile aku ignore die
die ingt kn aku marah gi-la
patu blh lak same kan aku ng nabi
katenye
nabi pon maapkan umat
aiyo
aih


still tunggu die
utk jmpe
nk je aku wt pedajal
bia die lak tetunggu tunggu aku
hahah
cool kan ?