okay semalam saya pegi tgk movie. heheh. rapunzel dulu (sbb 2jam!!), then baru ngankung.

rapunzel sgt bedekah!! memg lawak superb x ingat la! xleh tahan nye lawak. then bile masuk ngankung, sy xnampak pon ape lawaknye. mungkin sebab dah banyak sgt promotion, then bile tyme iklan asek keluar ayat yg same. so kite dah tao dah what will going next and next. mcm tu la. ending die sgt senang je. semua orang nangis dan menyesal. kalau dalam perfileman they will say, ending yg mcm xde bajet. eh yeke? mcm saya ni pandai sgt la kn. hahahaha ape ku kesah!

then makan. patu balik.

saya puas hati keluar sbb :

- dah lame x keluar cenggini

- dah lame x keluar sampai balik malam. hahah dasar anak jahat

- kitorg mkn 2x tp sy kenyang :)

dan sy happpyyyy sangat. bebunge2. ceh ayat nak best je. :p sy asek ketawe. hehe. x boleh x senyum. sbb kan lawak die. mcm biase, die akan selalu wat sy senyum. thanks a lot awak. :)

soryyy mimie sbb x mencube. i did. tp its kindda hard for me :(

mungkin akan keluar. mungkin juga tidak. dan ini rencana nya. ;p

saya suke fairytale. dan saya dah hafal semua cerita fairytale. sebab dari kecik beli buku semua nak bestt je. patu pegi usha sendiri. then jumpe ayah, mintak duet sebab nak beli buku. hehehehe

ta sangka sedang saya hidup lagi, satu2 cerite fairytale di movie kan. contoh, mermaid. sampai ade 2cerita. satu pasal ibu die, ariel tu. satu lagi pasal anak die, melody tu. then, cinderella. pon ade due jugak. satu, the original one. satu lagi, pasal kakak tiri die cube nak rampas laki tu dengan care sihir laki tu so that laki tu akan nampak cinderella, tp kakak tiri die sebenarnye. patu pasal ape lagi ek. haaa then rapunzel pulak! rase rasenye, beauty and the beast pon dah ade. snow white ta payah cakap la. even alice in the wonderland pon dah kua.

saya membesar dengan membace fairytale. :)

RELATIONSHIPS LAST LONG NOT BECAUSE THEY’RE DESTINED TO LAST LONG. RELATIONSHIPS LAST LONG BECAUSE TWO BRAVE PEOPLE MADE A CHOICE—TO KEEP IT, FIGHT FOR IT, AND TO WORK FOR IT. MEANWHILE, OTHER RELATIONSHIPS FAIL NOT BECAUSE THEY’RE DESTINED TO FAIL. THEY FAIL BECAUSE ONE OF THE TWO, OR BOTH, MADE THE CHOICE—TO SET EACH OTHER FREE.

Do you know that when a boy breaks a girl’s heart, its much, much, much more than you know it affected her? That her tears are not only to show how much it hurt but to at least try to blur out the world so she can forget? That she thinks every sleeping and waking moment what the hell did she did wrong? That when she looks at the photos of you with her, she tries to tear it but can’t because they’re very beautiful memories to keep? That she can’t throw away the gifts and carefully preserved chocolate you gave her because you gave it to her? That whenever she thinks of the “I love you” words you told her, she mutters “I love you, too” but realizes she can’t say it anymore? That its like the whole world tumbling before her very eyes? NO. You don’t know what it feels like. You don’t know how it feels to be cheated, to be left, to be fooled. And its taken very seriously because, once a girl loves, a girl really loves.

JUM BERSIHKAN KEKOTORAN INI

dedicate to you

cukup sudah kau menghukum

salahku tetap salahku

benarkan ku berbicara

sampai bila

kau kan diam

seribu bahasa

maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu

fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu

bagaimana ku nanti

bila tiada mengganti

yang ku ada hanya kamu sahaja

saat mata terpejam

hanya kau ku terbayang

menghapus semua segala resah dijiwaku

saat mata terbuka

kamulah yang pertama

tak mampu aku bayangkan hidup tanpa dirimu

aku memang bersalah

selalu saja mengabaikanmu

dan tapi dah ku sedari

segala perih kau lalui

KU TERLUPA KAU TERLUKA

dan memang selalu

aku bersalah

selalu saja mengabaikanmu

meninggalkanmu

dan tetapi itulah

aku sedari

segala perih yang kau lalui

kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu

fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu

bagaimana ku nanti

bila tiada mengganti

yang ku ada hanya kamu sahaja

awak :')

duduk besame kakak tecinta di bumi putra ni, sy dapat nasihat. hehehe.

sis4 ckp, sy ni banyak ikot hati. buat ape2 xpena pk panjang. teheee

dan, ble sy cakap, selalunye bile kami begadoh, kitorg akan face-to-face and spill and its done. akan berbaik semula. tapi die cakap, sebenarnye care sebegitu ta bagos at all.

die cakap,

as you grow older, you will know yg care macam tu doesn't works. its better for both of you keep silent for awhile. then baru bincang.

tapi sy takot. takot if bende ni x cepat setel, sy akan hilang die. takot if die berubah hati. atau dah tawar hati. atau die xkn bangkitkan balik pasal kami so sy tade peluang nk ckp pape2 pasal kami. sy takot sy akan beputus ase dgn die.

AIDILADHA :)

balik tanpa dirancang. sy puase ari selase tu. sedang blaja,

sis4 : jum balik nak?

me : im fasting

sis4 : awak nk bebuke ape?

me : if kite balik, sempat ke nak bebuke kt rumah? same je kn?

sis4 : tgk lah cane

so petang tu die balik, sy sedang tgk berite. sbb petang dah belaja kan. teheee. then die cakap, japg la balik, kul9 keee, akak nak tdo jap. eh ???? em oke. dlm hati doa bebanyak supaye gerak lepas cerite ASMARA. hahaha mengade.

tingtong tingtong, 11pm baru gerak. hehe. ayah pon dah tepon2 bile nak sampai. 1.30am sampai rumah. ingat nk trus tdo tp sis4 bukak tudung saji tgk ade makanan. patu ade ikan semilang. dgn lapa nye kami belasah ikan semilang smpi licin. eh tak! ade lagi 2ketol. tumbang pd 2am ! hehe

bangun pagi, mule2 ingat xnk g solat raye. tapi tgk sume dah pakai jubah, trus siap la. alang2 tu kann.. sbb solat raye puase sy xdpt pegy.

sampai ke petang, henpon sy diam je. then sy sms die. sy tao ta patot kacau orang. tp dah tebiase. sy anta sms tahun lepas sbb sy ni jenis yang, menyimpan sms. contoh mcm sms raye haji ni. sy simpan dari tahun lepas, so bile dapat lagi tahun ni, sy akan padam la tahun lpas punye. then tahun ni akan simpan sampai ke tahun depan punye. haaa mcm tu la. hehe.

trus die tepon. mule2 mcm xnk angkat. tp tula, sy xnk ego x memasal. so sy angkat. sy xbole hidup tanpe die. tp die nk sgt sy hidup tanpe die.

haaa pasal solat td kan, anak buah sy yg nani kepoh tu pegy jugak!! cumel gilerrrr die pakai telekung. hehe. jubah pink lak tuh! awwww gojes!!

you gave me roses, and i left them there to die

so this is me swallowing my pride

standing in front of you

i'm sorry for that night

it turns out freedom ain't nothing

but missing you

wishing i realized

what i had when you were mine

then i think about summer

all the beautiful times

and i realized

I LOVED YOU

in the fall

you gave me all your love

-i go back to 10nov to make it alright. :')

jumaat before sabtu before ahad yg pi anta kakak ke lcct tu, sy ditugaskan jage my niece si tembam tu. haih. baby sitter sgt la sy ni. naseb bek die oke je. dah bg susu, trus senyap tgk katun. hehe.

kakak sy yg dah kawen tu dah selamat balik ke labuan ikot suami die. lepas tu anta sy ke putrajaya. bese la, yg kakak kt putrajaya ni xreti bgn awal. so kami g tgk wat is PICC and MASJID MIZAN aka masjid besi. soooo jakun la sy ni. btw, who cares la kn. hahaha teringat mimie. :D

-mama-

-irdina hanani-

oleh kerana bangun seawal 4am. make selepas mereka balik, sy trus tumbang ta sedar diri sampai zohor. tu pon sebab saket kepale menyerang. sy x blh tdo siang. haih.

the truth is ,

relationship kite bedue betahan disebabkan awak bersabar dengan kerenah kedegilan saya.

-once awak dah hilang sabar, sbb tu jadi macam ni. dan saya x pernah prepare untuk hal2 mcm ni. sbb sy ta pernah pikir awak akan hilang sabar ng saya.

besok mimie ajak puase. alasan : sbb umi i cakap besok puase dpt byk pahala :)

cumel betol.

my current place at my sis's room. heheh. at putrajaya. bye melake. melake busan. haha. ade family and mubin gemox tp xde kawan. sy xkn blaja if dok rumah.

well, final akan bermula on 23nov. it shud be my monthly annversary yg ke 2yrs 10months.

semua subjek adalah sebanyak 5. tapi baru dapat hidayah untuk 1 subjek. -,-

bangun tido 12pm atas alasan, bilik kakak sy gelap so x nampak matahari dah tegak atas kepale. GOSh!!

hidup ni sekali. hidup la mcm mane yg you all nak. nak tunggang tebalik ke. or else. tadi bukak blog kawan2 yg byk duet dari sy. yang hidup mereka, sort of sempurna bg sy. ade pakwe keta besa, ade byk duet melimpah ruah sampaikan sehelai t-shirt beharge rm54.50. patu tunjuk pade my sis. then i puji2 kawan2 i tu. patu die cakap.

xpayahla nak tunjuk pade semua orang your life macamne. iye, die mungkin sempurna bg awak. cantik, beduet. tapi ne tao, die tu da puas kne raba ke. rahmat dari Tuhan, die xdpt ke. die x hidup dlm keredhaan Tuhan ke. die jaoh dari kasih sayang family ke. macam mane pon ili, ingat selalu, hidup awak lagi better dari die.

:') xsangka akan dapat feedback sebegitu.

mimie :

tapi kadang2 tu ili, 2years means everything bagi lelaki. bukan senang die nak move on.

kadang kadang yg ni. kadang kadang yg lain, die senang nk move on.

took from mimie. again.

How do you know that you want somebody in your life? You forgive the person almost everytime they make you angry. You wake up and start talking to the person, like nothing has happened. You get disappointed in them, because you have expectations for them.

- maybe this is why i keep on pushing him. -,-

Cause I forgive you for every mistake you’ve done, for every tear you bring into my eyes, for every heartache.

- we're done.

my sis-in-law said

hidup di kuala lumpur, you choose,

1) kereta besar+best+mewah, rumah besar, tapi sampai bile2 xhabis bayar. makan x cukup

2) kereta besar+best+mewah, rumah bese2 je. saving siket.

3) kereta bese2 je, tapi rumah besar+ade kolam renang, tempat elit gtuuu.

orang Malaysia sgt kaya. sebab beli kereta mahal2 compare to jerman, us and len2. orang Malaysia habiskan hutang bayar kereta dan rumah sahaje. bayar loan balik.

its TRUE

ilinoriko (9:16:24 PM): ko xnk cepat2 kawen ng die ke?

neddy_wana (9:16:55 PM): kalo blh tu nk la....

neddy_wana (9:17:04 PM): xnk wat dosa da..

neddy_wana (9:17:05 PM): huhuhuh

ilinoriko (9:17:40 PM): tp keputusan kt laki

ilinoriko (9:17:42 PM): kn?

neddy_wana (9:17:55 PM): btol...

neddy_wana (9:18:00 PM): ak tggu je la...

ilinoriko (9:21:23 PM): sb kn ni la ak ng balak ak selalu gadoh

ilinoriko (9:21:37 PM): ak pon mcm ko nk kawen cepat sb xnk wt dosa

ilinoriko (9:21:40 PM): tp laki

ilinoriko (9:21:50 PM): makin kite cakap, die kate kite push die sgt

ilinoriko (9:22:01 PM): ak da tatau cne nk convince kn pd die lg

neddy_wana (9:22:21 PM): mybe dye nk cri duet dulu kot...

neddy_wana (9:22:35 PM): dye nk ko sng ble kawen dgn dye nati...

neddy_wana (9:22:41 PM): ko kne fhm dye...

ilinoriko (9:23:40 PM): klu senang, tp terase jaoh cne?

ilinoriko (9:23:48 PM): sbb masg2 kejar duet

ilinoriko (9:23:53 PM): konon utk kesenangan

neddy_wana (9:24:40 PM): cmne ek nk ckp...

neddy_wana (9:24:49 PM): laki ni laen ckit...

neddy_wana (9:25:07 PM): dye kalo blh nk senangkn kte...

neddy_wana (9:25:27 PM): even kte ckp xpe, nati leh cri duet sme2...

neddy_wana (9:25:45 PM): tp dye stil rase tu tggjwb dye...

neddy_wana (9:26:42 PM): gpun, dye xnk org laen pndg rndh kt dye..

neddy_wana (9:26:57 PM): pe la bdk tu, xde duet gatai nk kawen..

neddy_wana (9:27:07 PM): nati bini nk bg mkn pe??

neddy_wana (9:27:10 PM): pasir??

neddy_wana (9:27:43 PM): sbb tu dorg kne wat keputusan btol2 nk kawen...

neddy_wana (9:28:01 PM): kawen ni bkn perkara maen2...

neddy_wana (9:28:07 PM): bkn shari dua...

ilinoriko (9:28:43 PM): ko rase, adi tu seswai tuk ko?

neddy_wana (9:29:21 PM): ak xtau la dye tu sesuai kt ak ke x...

neddy_wana (9:29:32 PM): tp ak ckp btol ak selesa dgn dye...

neddy_wana (9:29:51 PM): kalo blh, ak nk idup smpi ble2 dgn dye...

neddy_wana (9:30:05 PM): tu pun, kalo jodoh ak dgn dye...

ilinoriko (9:38:36 PM): em oke

ilinoriko (9:38:39 PM): ntah la

ilinoriko (9:38:42 PM): ak tensyen sgt

ilinoriko (9:39:05 PM): sb ak yakin ak blh hidupng die smpi bile2

ilinoriko (9:39:13 PM): sb tu ak ta risau sgt pasl kawen

ilinoriko (9:39:21 PM): IYE, kawen tu bukan utk sehari due

ilinoriko (9:39:30 PM): ak sgt tau fakta tersebot

ilinoriko (9:39:41 PM): sb tu ak nk kawen sgt

ilinoriko (9:39:59 PM): sb ak dah make it ng die 2yrs 10month

ilinoriko (9:40:34 PM): ade org ckp,becinta lame2, bila dah kawen, ak boring

ilinoriko (9:40:41 PM): so ak ta nk boring tu ade

ilinoriko (9:40:51 PM): sb tu tyme fresh lg ni la ak nk kawen ng die

neddy_wana (9:41:16 PM): ili, tu org yg ckp...

neddy_wana (9:41:35 PM): kalo btol ko syg2 dye sgt2, n dye pun syg sgt2 kt ko,

neddy_wana (9:41:45 PM): mmg xde istilah boring tau...

neddy_wana (9:42:23 PM): ak tau sbb pe ko nk kawen cpt..

neddy_wana (9:42:29 PM): ak pun mcm ko gk..

neddy_wana (9:42:45 PM): tp ko kne ingat ko kne bg mse ckit kt dye...

neddy_wana (9:42:58 PM): tggjwb dye lg bsar ble da kawen nati...

neddy_wana (9:43:32 PM): ko nk ker ble kawen nati rumah tgga korg kucar kacir...

neddy_wana (9:43:47 PM): sbb dye xmampu nk pikul tggjwb tu...

neddy_wana (9:43:57 PM): bg mse ckit je lg kt dye....

neddy_wana (9:44:27 PM): insyaAllah, nati ko xsuh pun, trus dye msok minang....

ilinoriko (9:44:46 PM): ko blh tgu smpi 5thn lg?

neddy_wana (9:45:39 PM): insyaAllah...

neddy_wana (9:45:46 PM): ak akn tggu dye....

ilinoriko (9:46:05 PM): sbb ko nk sgt die?

ilinoriko (9:46:10 PM): sb ko selesa ng die?

neddy_wana (9:46:36 PM): yer...

neddy_wana (9:47:00 PM): tp in case ktowg tputus tgh jln,

neddy_wana (9:47:09 PM): tu tndanye ktowg xde jodoh...

neddy_wana (9:47:43 PM): skang ni, kte tgh kenal aty budi masing2 dlu...

neddy_wana (9:48:11 PM): mmg la ktowg da cple dua thun, tp stil de benda yg ak xpasti ag sal dye...

neddy_wana (9:48:24 PM): ak pun kne amik mase nk jd bini org..

neddy_wana (9:48:54 PM): blaja msk benda2 sume tu..

neddy_wana (9:49:14 PM): ak xnk ble ak kawen dgn dye nati, ak yg nyusahkan dye...

neddy_wana (9:49:43 PM): xnk la cmtu, ko pun tau kan tugas isteri meyenangkan aty suami..

ilinoriko (9:58:47 PM): em oke

ilinoriko (9:59:03 PM): tp ade je pmpn tatau masak kawen

ilinoriko (9:59:21 PM): tp stil, it depend pade laki tesebot, blh ke ta trime

neddy_wana (9:59:39 PM): mmg la...

neddy_wana (9:59:46 PM): mula2 xpe la, xkesah...

neddy_wana (9:59:52 PM): tp ble da lme2...

neddy_wana (9:59:55 PM): camne???

neddy_wana (10:00:05 PM): xke boring laki tu nati...

ilinoriko (10:04:15 PM): em oke

ilinoriko (10:04:24 PM): ko selalu pegi rumah die kn?

ilinoriko (10:04:51 PM): ko ade rase ta mcm, 'u shud stop pegy rumah die unless u ade sumting to do with him'?

ilinoriko (10:04:57 PM): mcm dah tunang ke

neddy_wana (10:05:43 PM): de la gk...

neddy_wana (10:05:50 PM): tp xsmpi aty la lak...

neddy_wana (10:06:07 PM): kdg2 adik dye tnye ak ble nk blk...

neddy_wana (10:06:34 PM): tp bab tunang ni, ak mls nk mntk...

neddy_wana (10:06:49 PM): kalo dye rase bsedia nk minang ak, juz go on..

neddy_wana (10:07:01 PM): kalo blom lg, ak tggu jer...

neddy_wana (10:07:07 PM): ak xnk paksa2...

ilinoriko (10:07:41 PM): ak lak, x kesa if ikat lame as long as dah betunang

ilinoriko (10:08:02 PM): so at least, ikatan tu murni la siket compare tu hanye setakat boyfren gurfren

ilinoriko (10:08:18 PM): ak x mcm ko, xnk pakse2

ilinoriko (10:08:44 PM): tp bg ak, ak bkn nye memakse

ilinoriko (10:08:53 PM): tp die rase ak memakse

ilinoriko (10:09:01 PM): ak cume nk cepat

ilinoriko (10:09:06 PM): sb people are talking

ilinoriko (10:09:11 PM): dan mereka x penat

ilinoriko (10:09:28 PM): mungkin mereka akn penat, tp bile??

ilinoriko (10:09:46 PM): dan odw tgu mereka akn penat, kite tetap kne dgr jgk kn

neddy_wana (10:10:18 PM): mulut org smpi ble2 kte xleh tutup...

neddy_wana (10:10:31 PM): mmg la ko rase ko xpksa dye...

neddy_wana (10:10:34 PM): tp dye???

neddy_wana (10:10:49 PM): phm la dye

neddy_wana (10:11:04 PM): kalo ko tros pakse dye, laen lak jd nye...

neddy_wana (10:11:25 PM): dye pun nk gk tunang dgn ko, kawen dgn ko...

neddy_wana (10:11:36 PM): tp tgk la keadaan dye skang...

neddy_wana (10:11:59 PM): kalo dye tu ank dato, byk duet dye xkesah sgt....

neddy_wana (10:12:12 PM): n then, ko kne fkir gk...

neddy_wana (10:12:18 PM): dye tu laki...

neddy_wana (10:12:25 PM): tugas lg besar...

neddy_wana (10:12:37 PM): bkn stkt ko jer dye nk jge...

neddy_wana (10:12:47 PM): family dye pun dye kne jge gk...

neddy_wana (10:13:11 PM): nati ble da kawen, fmily ko pun jd tggjwb dye gk...

neddy_wana (10:13:23 PM): cbe ko pkir...

neddy_wana (10:13:43 PM): kalo dri dye sendri pun dye xleh nk jge,

neddy_wana (10:14:22 PM): agk2 dye leh jge ke sume???

neddy_wana (10:14:37 PM): laki byk tggjwb dye...

-almost everything come out from her, already came out from him-

you know...

saya rase saya sedang membesar bile bercakap dengan AAA. saya dapat rase saya tengah bercakap gune otak. bukan hati semata atau nafsu semata. bukanlah bermakna cakap dengan shuk tu membazir mase. tp ini different. different in terms of having conversation dengan kawan2. dengan AAA, die ni kawan yg lain. kawan yg mengajar kite bercakap dengan matangnye. mcm tu la sy rase sekarang. kan sy ade cite pasal yg saya ade ter'fall' ng die? yep its true. dan kami dah setel. betol. dan malam tadi kami bincang lagi. sy terkejot dan maluu sebenarnye bile die bangkitkan balik. tp kadang2 ade perkare yg kite nk teliti betol2 baru lah kite puas hati yg perkare tu dah setel. paham ta??haha.

Ahmad Akmal: awk jgn la ske seseorg sbb harta rupa or pepe..

Ahmad Akmal: sume tu kan rezeki sri tuhan..

Ahmad Akmal: kite xtau mse depan..

Ahmad Akmal: klu kire ske seseorg sbb ikhlas n mmg sbb kite ske kan... ssh sng bersama pn xde masalah.. mesT sngt2 bahagia..

see??? different sgt..

perbualan sy dengan shuk adalah rahsia. helloo perbualan suami isteri mesti lagi matang. nk bayar bil api air lagi, astro lagi.. ahaha bocorkan rahsie sendiri lak. shh !!

AAA : pepepn kite sume ade masalah.. n once kite get trough kite akn puas...

oh ye.. nafsu pompuan mmg besar.. tp x pyh..

[10:56:03 PM] Ahmad Akmal: nafsu lelaki satu.. tp sangt2 bahaya..

AAA, saya doakan agar awak dapat berubah sepertimana yg awak nak. doa banyak2. niat yg murni, selalu dipermudahkan. aamiiinn...

:D

yey!

saya tukar bekground! first time! weehooo! bru semangat sket nk becerite

kene kedekot.

sebab.

-kawen nanti tade org nk sponsor

-rumah nanti x bole beli linkungan rm100k-rm150k. kne lebih

-ayah tanak rumah anak die kt area yg x gelemor

-nk bayar upah katering, kendarat, pelayan sbb da tade istilah gotong royong. sume nk cantik je

-dah anak tebuang kn, kene la bedikari dlm segala hal serba serbi

jangan pk sy kuat marah, hot temper, ganas, kasar --> tade sebab.

awak ta tau kisah hidup saya dan pejalanan nye bagaimana

awak beruntung ade family pnuh dengan duet

tdo atas duet

tade hutang

pakwe bru setahun jagung da pakai keta besa2

awak memg hebat

tapi

kalau kite ta hidup susa

kite ta kan bersyukur bile dah senang

susa yg awak alami ta same mcm saya

setakat hutang beberape ratos atau pon langsir x bayar lagi

tu bukan susa

adik beradik awak ta ramai

mak bapak kje

awak nye hidup memg best

sy nak sangat hidup mcm tu

tp saya tau

ni takdir saya

saya kne hadapi

sebab

ALLAH tu ta kan uji hamba-Nya

melainkan Dia tahu hamba-Nya mampu untuk get thorugh

:)